Assalamualaikum and hello. 

The older I became, the more I worried about my life. As years go by, the worries remain the same. Sometimes, I will sit and wonder how my life gonna turn up. For now, it's still not good enough for me. Being grateful does not mean you can't feel like to want something more. 

As I get older, I become more afraid of making a big decision. Afraid, it did not turn out well. My fearless fading from day by day. Lots of responsibility needs to be taken measure during making those decisions. Hearing lots of ted talk, receiving advice etc seems not enough. 

Actually, I feel like since graduating I did not get a good rest except the 3 months that I decided to take before going into the adult world. Other than that, I have been working nonstop. Yet, after so many years, I still feel lost. It's like you have peppermint ice cream without chocolate. It's a bad example, but it does feel like that. I need that chocolate chips to make that ice cream masterpiece. 

I had a lot of choices but didn't know which one was the best. Stuck at staring those cards. 

Previously, I said, that sometimes it's okay to be on the same floor while others keep moving forward. It's good enough as we have the whole floor and we can do whatever we want as it's ours. 

But, at this point in my life, I think my floor feel to much to the point I felt it start emptying on its own. 

End.